PMS, full moon and new-years-lonley-sad

how 'bout getting off of these antibiotics
how 'bout stopping eating when I'm full up
how 'bout them transparent dangling carrots
how 'bout that ever elusive kudo

how 'bout no longer being masochistic
how 'bout remembering your divinity
how 'bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out

the moment I let go of it was the moment
I got more than I could handle
the moment I jumped off of it
was the moment I touched down

Wise

In the words of Rick Springfield:

It's funny how desire can burn you up inside
and make you committ emotional suicide

Enough now!
Dare to feel and act.
Get a life

Yes!

Last day

Did my last day at work yesterday.
I got some really nice flowers from my boss' boss. She's sweet.
Will meet my team for glögg (sort of glühwine) wednesday evening and it will be nice to have a party'ish end to it.
I sent out a goodbye e-mail to those I have worked with and it's really a boost for the confidence to hear what they answer back. I like to think I have made some difference and I think my successor will have some problems as she's not the diplomatic type :) I hope it will be alright.

It feels a bit weird and I will miss my collegues, but I am convinced I have made the right decision and I'm really looking forward to starting at Teleperformance on monday. Will kickstart by going to Oslo om monday morning :)

Changing job

I just have 3 more days left at my old job.

This is how happy I am...

Hamburg

Me and my girls went to Hamburg last week.
They mean the world to me and I just love them to bits.
xxx

Gothenburg

Went to see Europe in Gothenburg on friday. Or maybe more like... went to see friends who went to see Europe :)

Crazy crowd. Somewhere between 50 000 - 100 000 according to the press. Managed to stay sort of close for a song and a half and realized I didn't enjoy it one bit, so I left. Took me about 30 minutes to even get out of the crowd... Went to HRC for beers and nachos. They played excellent music, so I had a great time despite missing my fave band.

Loved meeting up with the friends again. I wish we all could meet more often!

Going with Stefy to Marcels funeral. It will be a tough week...

Sad day

The best bass player in the world, Marcel Jacob, took his life yesterday...

I suppose creative genious and depression sometimes go hand in hand, but it's such a waste!!!

I feel so much for his former girlfriend Stefy. I wish I could just be there for her in person and not only with words through a pc.

Stefy (& Marcel) made my 40'th birthday.

I was gonna go to Holland and Arrow Rock Festival the next day and meet up with friends there, but on the night of my birthday I was alone in Stockholm.

I decided to go to Anchor for a beer. I sat alone at the bar feeling, admittedly, a bit pathetic and I see this girl I think I recognise, passing me to go to the rest room, when she comes back it turns out to be my Italian friend Stefy. Sunny, happy, lovely Stefy. She invites me to their table and I spend a great couple of hours with her, Marcel and 2 other friends.

I had always admired Marre since the first time I saw him. He played his bass like a lead guitar. Now he also turned out to be a very eloquent guy with a great sense of humor.

I'm sad!

RIP Marre

Much love and energy to Stefy <3