Tuesday, 9 February 2010


Livet är konstigt!
Fick en ingivelse att läsa mer på bloggen där den man som förlorade sin son i en tågolycka för någon vecka sedan skriver så vackert men bedövande sorgligt om sina känslor.
Begravningen är idag. Klockorna skulle ringa 13:37 - Jag tittar på klockan på datorn... 13:37.

All kärlek till den familjen idag!! <3

Tuesday, 2 February 2010


As much as I pity myself I have absolutley nothing to complain about compared to this.

This link is to a blog of a man whos family lost their 14 year old son in a train accident a few weeks ago. It's so beutifully written and painful that it ripps your heart out. For all Swedes - Read it and remember how precious life is!



I have crystals adrift in my ear... crystals might sound luxurious, but these tiny F'ers needs to calm down and stop messing with my sense of balance... Whenever I move or when things move too fast before my eyes it's like I'm on a carousel and I feel sick...

It started on thursday. I was sure I had caught the stomach flu and fled from work. Took the bus from Dalagatan to Gullmarsplan (normally about 25 minutes) and had to get off the bus 4 times as I thought I was gonna puke. Didn't! Thank god for small pleasures :)
Slept most of thursday afternoon and all friday. Have been up but not able to do much since then. I really need to go to work!!

Went to the hospital on sunday and they took ECG and bloodtests and whathaveyou, and confirmed that the tiny crystals in my ear are drifting around. It will probably disappear in a matter of days, but I want it solved now!! Can't move, can't read, can't watch telly, can hardly be on the computer, I'm going crazy! Thank god for audio books! And for my cyber sisters who are checking in on me <3

Went to the store earlier as I'm almost out of everything eatible that doesn't need to be prepared. Felt 100 yrs old staggering back...

Done whining now I think... :)
I'll be fine.

Friday, 1 January 2010


Checking the internet and noticing everyones positivity for the new year and wondering:

A) Is it for real?
B) Is it some sort of affirmation?
C) Is it beacuse you should say such things?

I'm an emotionally challanged person :) I don't get it...
Or... am I cynical...?

Nevermind - Quite content being me - Just curious how others think :)

1/1 2010

Dreaded day turned out to be okay.
Happy again :)

Wednesday, 30 December 2009

PMS, full moon and new-years-lonley-sad

how 'bout getting off of these antibiotics
how 'bout stopping eating when I'm full up
how 'bout them transparent dangling carrots
how 'bout that ever elusive kudo

how 'bout no longer being masochistic
how 'bout remembering your divinity
how 'bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out

the moment I let go of it was the moment
I got more than I could handle
the moment I jumped off of it
was the moment I touched down

Saturday, 21 November 2009


In the words of Rick Springfield:

It's funny how desire can burn you up inside
and make you committ emotional suicide

Enough now!
Dare to feel and act.
Get a life